Feb 5, 20227 min read

FORGIVENESS? WHAT'S THAT? AND WHICH DAY EXACTLY IS THE SABBATH?

FIRST:

BEFORE YOU READ THIS

FORGIVE YOURSELF.

NONE OF US, NONE,

REALLY KNOW WHAT THE HELL HAS BEEN HAPPENING BEHIND CLOSED DOORS NOR OUT OF SIGHT NOR OUT OF MIND.

AND WE ONLY KNOW OURSELVES & OUR LIFE STORY BETTER THAN ANY ONE ELSE, EXCEPT THE INDIVISIBLE CREATOR GOD OF ALL.

Total forgiveness & Unconditional Love is what has always fueled my deep well of patience. Sadly, to the point that others have long taken for granted both strapping me with false accusations blame shame & guilt that is not mine to bear to the point it costs me my health & then those same drainers turn on me again telling me I am to blame telling me I am allowing them to drain me. YEP, the circle back. No I am not most assuredly when I am called the broken record...HELOOOOOOO.

My children are eager helpers, so much so they arrive early driving themselves to help set up, & have long stayed after when just the 4 of us are closing up. This I don't have a problem with ever. It is the habitual outliers that even will profess, well it looks like y'all have it covered I am got to go shopping. Help meets like me have often formed great networks because we know the patterns of being stuck with the "trash mountains" of others who just keep trailing their "trashing" & "bashing" as if they are God's gift to the world & the not hired help is not living up enough to keep up with shuffling their "this is so last season stuff" treasures yes that also so much Good Will that we're being pushed out of house h home & my back cannot take hoisting up the "I'm the best" dead weight who think their left there mental avoidance be-have-yours piling up does not stink to high heaven.

The relay part of relationships is just that, hand to hand, pass the baton, run your distance. I am not wrong nor bad to speak hard truth

AND STILL WHOLEHEARTEDLY FORGIVE

& KEEP POURING OUT UNCONDITIONAL LOVE WHILE RELEAAING EMPTYING MY HAND & HOLDING SPACE IN MY HEART BOTH NEAR & FAR TO FREELY ALLOW ALL OTHER SINNERS, SELF INDIVIDUMAIZED NEGATORS JUST LIKE ME YES WE ALL DO IT THERE IS NO SHAME IN SPEAKING HARD TRUTH UNLESS WE CHOOSE TO SHAME OURSELVES FIR CONTRIBUTING TO THE ILL CYCLE THUS IN SHAMING OTHERS FOR NOT OWNING OURSELVES UP TO THE FACT WE EACH HAVE VISIBLE & INVISIBLE LEGS TO WALK OUR WALK AS *WELL* AS OUR TALK.

A "GOOD" MOTHER & FATHER (WHATEVER GOOD MEANS THESE DAYS) NEVER TIES PSYCHOLOGICAL KNOTS TO THEIR CHILDREN & STALK THEM INTO THINKING THEY CANNOT BE TRUSTED TO TAKE PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY FOR THEMSELVES TO CLEAN UP AFTER THEMSELVES &EARN YO DO THEIR OWN HOME WORK AS A TEAM.

AS A TEAM.

Cooperatively.

Go to work sure.

Me too.

I work the grind.

My office has been my home.

That computer I work on,

IS NOT MY TELEVISION & I DON'T WAATE MY TIME LIKE IT IS SOME TYPE OF GAMING MACHINE OR A POUR-NOG-RAPHY BOOB.

And Raffey is a kids musical artist!

NO, I DO NOT DO ANY ONE ELSE'S HOME WORK FOR THEM EITHER, NOR GIVE THEM CREDIT FOR THINGS THEY HAVE NOT DONE FOR THEMSELVES, NOR DO I BLAME OTHERS FOR ANY ONE'S ADDICTIONS FOR THROWING SHADE ON THE INNOCENT BEING TOO LOUD NEEDING TO BE FED OR THEIR DIAOERS CHANGED....NO NOT JUST THE POOR ALLOW THEIR CHILDREN TO SIT IN THEIR SHIT H SOGGY DIAPERS FOR HOURS AS IF THAT IS NOT SEEN...WHERE BLAME SHAME & GUILT IS NONE BUT THE NONFORGIVERS TO BEAR.

NOW FIRST & FOREMOST I KNOW WHAT VANITY MEANS IN PSYCHOLOGY TERMS, IT IS CALLED SELF CENTEREDNESS, EGOTISTICAL EGOTICISM, & NARCISSISM, SO COVERT, THAT TWISTING THE TRUTH IS NOT NORMAL NORMALIZED...CREATING AVOIDANCE BE-HAVE-YOURS OFF THE CHARTS THAT PATTERNISTICALLY SHOW UP IN GENERATIONS.

GOT ENOUGH PILLS IN YOUR BAGS & ENOUGH SIDE EFFECTS YET TO KILL THAT HIGH HORSE?

TOO HARSH?

TRY ASKING GOD'S CHILDREN, THE HOLY FATHER, & MOTHER EARTH,

THEY ALL SAY HELL NO WE'RE NOT TAKING Y'ALLS SHIT NO MORE, LOVE YA MORE THAN ENOUGH TO SAY SO.

TMI, WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?

GET IN.FORM.ED & IN-FORM-A-NATION, ALREADY!

THOSE BLACK SHEEP LIKE ME THAT BREAK AWAY FROM DYSFUNCTIONAL RELATIONSHIPS & DYSFUNCTIONAL SYSTEMS

AND DI NOT TEAR SHIT UP, NOR APART, NOR BURN SHIT DOWN, NORBURN RECEIPTS, NOR BURN BOOMS FOR TOILET PAPER, NOR STEAL, NOR RAPE, NOR PILLAGE.

FOR GOD'S SAKE!

WE THE BENEVOLENT CREW ALREADY BOTH FORGAVE & KEEP FORGIVING ALL THE TAKERS N TAKERS N TAKERS

& OURSELVES FOR ALLOWING TO BE TAKEN...

AND IN SO DOING BREAK GENERATINAL SIN IN THE PROCESS, LIKE IT OR NOT.

BY CHOOSING A DIFFERENT PATH.

THANK YOU

VERY MUCH.

WE WERE DIVINELY GIFTED FREEWILLN TOO, AND FRANKLY YES WE ARE SOECIAL ENOUGH TO FORGIVE & FORGET....UNTIL THE SINNER DOES IT AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN

OH, YES GOD SAYS GENTLY SAY, WE'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE, THIS MOTE THAN JUST ONE REPEAT SIN,

THIS GAS BEEN GETTING WORSE & WORSE & EORSE & WORSE FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS.

STOP,

BREATHE, FOR GOD'S SAKE SHOW YOUR FACE H TAKE OF THE HOOD DRAPOED OF YOUR MUZZLE HEARN HOW TO SPEAK UP FOR YOURSELF WITHOUT HIDING LIKE BO ONE SEES YOU H NOTICES THE TRAILS LEFT BEHIND IN THE KIN OF YOUR SKIN.

THINK NOW WHATCHA GOING DO....

& WHEN THE SHADE IS CONTINUALLY THROWN BY THE REPETITIVE BE-HAVE-YOUR-ISTS ENOUGH YOU CAN BET YOUR ARSE IT SHOWS UP IN THE PHYSICAL. IT'S CALLED THE LAW OF MANIFESTATION.

WHAT $TOP$ THE CYCLE?

SIMPLY STOP PARTICIPATING.

RELEASE THE "FIX IT FOR YOU" "BUT YOU OWE ME HUGE FIRST!" SYNDROME THAT IS THE VEINOUS ROOT THAT IS GROWING....

LIES TURN INTO RUMOR WEEDS....

INTO CONARTISTS ON STEROIDS

TEACHING TARGET PREMIUM CLIENTS LIKE WE ARE ANIMALS TO AIM H SHOT TO THE STARS!

& RUMOR WEEDS CIRCLE BACK....

EVERY TIME....TELLING SIMPLY....

THE "BIGGER" PERSON CAN CHOOSE TO GIVEN UP & NOT GIVE IN....

GIVING UP ALLOWS OTHERS A SPACE TO COME IN & WISE UP....

GIVING IN CREATES THE RUT & CAUSES DEEPER MORE COMPLEX AVOIDANCE PROBLEMS THAT IS STRIPPING & CLEARING & RAPING THE FORRESTS THAT ARE WHAT...

FILTERS FOR THE FILTHY AIR WE BREATHE.

YEP, PEOPLE WITH LOYALTY TO DYSFUNCTIONAL SYSTEMS LIKE STAYING IN DYSFUNCTIONAL COMPANIES & MARRIAGES

FOR WHO,

THE CHILDREN,

SO THEY TOO CAN RECEIVE THE SAME REPETITIVE PROBLEM$.

GUESS WHAT?

MOTHER LED WEANING IS A THING, TOO.

AND AFTER A PERIOD OF OFFERING NEW THINGS TO DRINK FROM BIG KID CUPS WHILE ALLOWING THE TIME PERIODS BETWEEN TO LENGTHEN UNTIL DOWN TO ONLY ONE AT NAP TIME,

MAMA & PAPA GET THE GIFT OF GOING AWAY FOR THE WEEKEND OR THE WEEK FOR MUCH NEEDED SELF CARE & TO PAY ATTENTION TO HIM H HER & THEM SELVES & THEUR BODY'S OWN VITAL NEEDS & RETURN & VOILA BIG KIDS & BIG GRANDMAS & BIG GRANDPAS, IF ALIVE, ARE ALL SO EXCITED TO SHOW THEIR BIGGNESS.

NOW WITH ADULTS WITH DEEPLY INGRAINED BOOB TOOB SYNDROME & OTHER LESS IN YOUR FACE ADDICTIONS OF PLAYING FAVORITES & GOSSIPING,

OH LORD ONLY KNOWS HOW LONG AWAY TAKES BEFORE THEY FINALLY SNAP THE HELL OUT OF IT.

EVER READ A BOOK TITLED:

ENTERTAINING OURSELVES TO DEATH?

IF NOT LOOK IT UP, GRAB A NOTEBOOK & A DICTIONARY, TOO, CAUSE THERE ARE BIG SCIENCEY WORDS IN THERE THAT EXPLAIN PSYCHOGICAL NEURAL DYSFUNCTIONS NOT JUST CAUSED BY THE BOTTLE, THE PILLS, THE TELLIE, OR THE CELL-YOU-ARE PHONES, ALL BEEN USED AS ARTIFICIAL NIPPLES AND DUMPED ON AS IF BABY SITTERS.

COKE IN A BABY BOTTLE?

NOPE.

DID NOT TAKE THAT ADD-VICE!!!!!!!

CANDY $ALE$ TOP THE CHART$ AT #1 ANNUALLY & NOPE, ALL THOSE CAVITIE$ & NOT CAU$ED BY CANDY ALONE. THE CLA$$ CANDY BUCKET WAS NOT MY IDEA EITHER, I "INHERITED" THAT WHICH WAS CHANTED AS GIMME PLEASE CAUSE WHO-WHO DID THAT AND THAT WAS SUPER COOL.

WELL, ALRIGHTY THEN, IF MOST ALL OF YOU JUST HAVE TO INSIST,

ASK & YOU SHALL RECEIVE, BUT DONATE YOUR OWN BAG$, CAUSE

ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH GOD, AFTER ALL.

YEP,

HARD TRUTH HURTS,

ONLY IF NO ONE SPEAKS IT.

YES, I FORGIVE ALL SOULS & ALL PEOPLE, & ALSO DO NOTCONTROL THEM NOR THEIR MINDS NOR THE BELIEFS THEY CREATE IN THEIR OWN HEAD.

I CAN & DO SAY OFTEN

THANK YOU FOR OFFERING

BUT NO THANK YOU

HERE'S WHY....

TO GET WHAT?

THAT I TALK TOO MUCH.

QUIT DOING STOOP-ID

SHIT REPEATEDLY

AND

I'D CAN FINALLY

STOP TALKING TIL I'M BLUE IN THE FACE

AND CONCENTRATE MORE

ON WHAT IS I AM DOING H HAVE ALWAYS DOWN

SETTING LANTERNS ON LESS MENTALLY TRAVELED PATHS.

NOW-HERE HEAR

IN REVELATIONS JOHN DOES NOT SAY THE SECOND COMMING

IS SOME HOME COMING QUEEN & KING CHARDADE.

HE SAYS HOW CHRIST WIL ARRIVE & GOD & MOTHER EARTH ARE WONDERING REAL LOUD,

WHEN ARE MY CHILDREN GOING TO GET IT THAT NONE BUT THEMSELVES CAN WALK & TALK & TAKE UP THEIR LIVES & THEIR CROSS ROAD FREEWILL CHOICES & RESPONSIBILITIES

FOR

THEMSELVES.

THERE IS A SIGN AT THE CHURCH NEAR A STOP SIGN INTO TOWN IT READS "JESUS IS COMING, ARE YOU READY?"

HIS CHURCH IS HIS BRIBE,

HE IS THE BRIDEGROOM.

DO YOU THINK THAT EVERYONE IS GOING TO GET THEIR OWN SOUL LAMP'S OILED UP IN TIME FOR WHAT...

THEY BIG HOLY AHA.

THAT IS ...

GET TO WORK NOW & CLEAN UP THIS MESS ALL ON OUR OWN & HELP CLEAN UP HEAVEN ON EARTH & RETURN IT AS WE FOUND IT.

I CANNOT HELP WHERE I AM NOT WANTED NOR ALLOWED TO HELP & CONSISTENTLY BE DUMPED ON & LEFT CLEANING WHILE THE SO SAID OF LEADER OF MY HOME SITS DAZED & CONFUSED SUCKING ON THE BOOB TUBE SO MUCH IT, GOD FORBID I ASK TO TURN IT OFF WHILE WE EAT DINNER.

OKAY

SO CHEWING IS ANNOYING,

& WE DO NOT SMACK OUR FOOD,

NOR EAT WITH BIBS ON, EITHER!

BUT NOOOO NOT EVEN MUSIC IS GOOD ENOUGH NOR LOW VIBE ENOUGH TO DRONE OUT THE LOOPING NOISE IN ATTIC$' HEAD$.

I KNOW WE ALL NEED HELP...

WHAT DRAG 'EM KICKING & SCREAMING LIKE BIG BABIES?

NO THANK YOU.

WE ADULTS IN THE ROOM BEING TRAPPED IN IVORY TOWER$ ARE BIG BOYS & BIG GIRLS NOW.

I QUIT! PLAYING THOSE GAME$ A LONG LONG LONG TIME AGO.

TRY TELLING THE REST OF "THEIR" INFLUENCES THAT.

I am NO fool,